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Don’t give up, you are doing great
Wordless Wednesday – Sunrise
Today is going to be a beautiful day!
Picture taken on my phone, watching the sunrise over Torquay, Devon, England x
Soul Sunday – Angel Wings
Change the way you see things
And the things you see will change
This picture is of one of the shells I collected on one of my many beach walks…
Do you see angel wings? X
Panoramic view of Dartmoor, Devon, England x
Our mind doesn’t know the way
Our heart has already been there
And our soul never left
Picture taken of Haytor on Dartmoor in Devon, England
My past is nothing more than the trail I have left behind… What drives my life today is the energy I generate in each of my present moments 🦋
(Picture taken yesterday at Ness beach Shaldon Devon)
What small steps are you going to do today towards your future goals?
Small steps everyday!
Love to you all x
Not So Wordless Wednesday – I Am Here – Free Writing
Talking to my inner peace, my space to take it all in, into my conscious mind
My physical body resting, peaceful in this place
My senses taking in the sounds around
The birds singing
The silence that isn’t silence
Humming in my ears
Whooshing of my heart
Softness of my breath
Clock ticking the fake time away
The now of just being here in this space
Taking notice of the way my physical body feels
The tightness across my lower back
Pressure on my tummy
The ache of my eye
Throbbing of feet
This all in my physical being that in this time I inhabit
Which is an instrument I can use how I will
Thoughts pinging here to there
I can be lead, let it me be guided for the better, learning, feeling
Being guided by an energy, a force that already knows
It is here to guide me
I am here to listen
For it is right
It knows what this ‘being’ is here to do
I just let it be and it will come to my physical thought
It is right
It is all right
The energy has lead me to this point of now
I am guided
I am that
I am now
You Are Enough ❤️
Set it as a reminder on your phone!
Write it in your mirror!
Put it in your fridge!
You are enough
Love to you all x
The Ness, Devon, England
Took the hairy boy for a walk on the beach yesterday. Just beautiful!!
I’m very lucky that I live in a very lovely part of my country, Devon. This is Ness beach, which is in Shaldon near Teignmouth. The pictures where taken on the beach and then I walked along the coastal path, and looked down on the beach.
I love going to the beach just to clear my head. I often go in-between night shifts because I struggle the most, physically and mentally when I’m on night shifts. To be blunt it just fucks my body up!! But I’ve become aware of that now, I began to recognise the pattern so I put plans in place to support me during those times. I think that’s the key really when you having a low time…
- Recognising your patterns of moods…. When do they happen? What’s triggered it? Maybe keep a mood diary for a couple mouths so you can build up a picture.
- Plan for those times. Do nice things that make you happy such as listen to music, take a walk, hot bath, watch your favourite programme. Be kind to yourself
- Except that it is going to happen, and that’s ok. You are prepared, it’s normal, and it won’t last.
As soon as I excepted the fact that when I do a run of night shifts I’m going to feel tired, I’m going to feel low, I’m probably going to cry, I just felt better and did not stress myself out worrying why I was feeling like this.
Hope this helps.
Love to you all x
Like an oil painting isn’t it.
As the sun sets the colours change.
I feel there’s a book title in there somewhere!!
It’s amazing isn’t it that when you look at a picture what pops up in your head.
My beautiful dearest friend sent me these pictures of her walk the other evening.
Love to you x
Throwback Thursday 02/22/13 – WPC: Forward
As I have had this blog for a few years now, i thought it would be nice to revisit some old blog posts!
I posted this when I was still teaching, which profession I left 4 years ago now, and to be honest at times I miss. I miss the kids, the creativity, the fun. To be fair I can’t promise I won’t go back to it in some way in the future……
I wonder what these are up to now? Happy I hope….
The reason I chose this picture for this weeks challenge, is this picture was taken while on my last school trip with last years year six class. And I felt this picture was very poignant because these two boys had been best friends all the way from nursery, all the way though ups and downs of their primary life, both of them being sometimes a little challenging in their behaviour but just boys stuff, one of them having what I call ‘the swagger’ they where both lovely boys with great senses of humours, I loved them them to bits like they where my own. We had been though laughter, dressing up in dresses, hitting me accidentally with a cricket ball, cheeky comments and tears together.
I think this picture matches the theme ‘forward’ well, because here for just this moment they are both looking out to the lake, knowing that soon their lives will be changing and moving forward to separate secondary schools and this friendship will change. It does make me shed a tear.
Love to you all x
Wordless Wednesday – Warmth
I feel we all need a bit of warmth, sunshine, glow and radiance on this cold, wet, windy January morning!
Love to you all x
What do you need more of in your life?
At this moment, whilst I’m sat at work, watching the seconds to the end of my short break, and before I face another persons personal drama, as I hear the rain splashing on the toad outside, and the rattles from the building as the wind picks up again…
Sun… yes the warm, comforting, glow of the sun…. yes that will do right now!
Love to you all x
Oh What a Circus, Oh What a Show
Staying out of other peoples drama, is my todays thought…..
I have been so guilty of it in the past and am still now but more mindful of it and to stop it in its tracks. I seem to attract myself to people that are ‘drama queens’, always something major going on with there life. If you have been a bit ill with the sniffles, then they have had ‘Arabian Night flu” and the doctors said it was touch and go they nearly died! You know the kind of people I am talking about we all have them in our lives, some are as close as family members, when you think, yes finally they are settled got themselves a nice house job girlfriend…. Oh no what’s happened now… To people we work with, friends etc
I think why I am saying all of this is what has helped me in my ‘I want to feel better’ quest is to distance myself from those people, not get fully hooked in, not join their parade, and start swinging the batons around with them.
It does sound selfish really I know but they are energy zappers, spirit suckers, thought drainers.
- So I step out of the ring
- I let them know I still love them
- I am saving the energy for me
love to you all x
Where Do I Start?
Here it is then a new year, beginning of a new week, new beginnings la de da… how many times have we heard that over this last week, the pressure of it all, thinking ‘shit’ if I don’t start something new today it will be too late, then that’s it I’ve failed before I have even started, now I have to wait till next year…..
And STOP its ok its not too late, it never is, it’s always a good time to start, the only time when it is to late is when we are dead!
I know that does sound a bit morbid but it is true, doing the job I do, I’m seeing them in and seeing them out and all the in between, and one thing I am sure about until you take your last breath there is always time, hope. Now don’t get me wrong I have my days and I am not ashamed to say, well I was but I’m learning to accept them, I have suffered from depression, I still suffer anxiety on a daily basis, panic overwhelming me like a wave of water over taking my head and body and this is what I was talking about in my last post, how do I get over this…over…wrong word, I don’t think I will ever get over, but what I am doing is learning how to manage, learning how not to let it get sunk right in, learning how to let thoughts of self harm, panic, self hate pass through like visitors… nice to see you but it’s always nice to see you go ….
Daily habits, as mentioned in last post,
So if you wanted, for example to be a concert pianist, it does not happen overnight, first you would get the resources, piano, music books, then you would go to someone that already knows how to play the piano, you would get lessons, then you would take on board what they have taught, because they are the person that have already done it, then you would practice what you have been taught until you are familiar with it, trained your muscle memory, then go back to the person that has more knowledge than you and go through the cycle again, you get my drift. Well these steps are the same for everything.
I want to feel better, spoiler alert…. it is not going to happen over night, so I am going to need resources, I am going to need to learn from someone or people that have learnt how to feel better, I am going to need to take on board what they have to say, now for the big one…. PRACTICE what they have suggested, then when I want to learn more and am ready for the next step go back to the people that have learnt more than me and carry on the cycle.
- Expert ….. Oh I hate that word… expert… a drip under pressure!!!! A person that knows more than I do, yes I know, I don’t know everything
- Keep repeating
What I am going to do in the coming year, I am going to share what resources I am and have used, including books, YouTube videos, pinterest and my best resource good old fashioned pen and paper. The people I have gone to that have and help me, whether that is someone I have never met but their writings have inspired me, to the people around in my life. How I practice, how I make time in my busy life of working in the ambulance service and now starting a second job in a mental health hospital, a family, grandchildren, dogs, you know all those time zappers. And how I find the motivation to keep going, what helps me, what stops me sinking into the pit with my dark passenger. And if any of this helps you then great! But if it does not then I am helping someone, I am helping me.
Love to you all x
Review, Reflect, Reborn
Wow 2017 what a year you have been. I started the year buying a page a day diary and wrote on page one in big letters….
This year is about self-help
- Heal myself
- No more hurt
- Say no when I want to
As a child at school I was always a secret daily writer, and considering I was named as one of the thickos, in special classes, later labeled as dyslexic ,I kept a Dear Diary everyday and I still have those now… I’ve read them through, they are no Adrian Mole but a reminder of those times. I did not write about my feelings in those times because of the fear of someone reading it but what it did unknowingly teach me was about daily habits.
Daily habits have been my saving grace this year. I am a great believer in small daily habits. It’s trendy and traditional at this time of year to be setting your New Year resolutions, which really are another word for setting goals. But how many of us keep them up? And why is that? Many reasons I suppose, time, motivation, self discipline, goal feels too big because there’s no plan in place, fear, self talk, the kids need picking up, the tea needs cooking, where is your PE kit?, oh shit the dog just peed on the carpet, Aunt Bessie is ill, my nails need cutting, new series of Game of Thrones is about to start, why did you not tell me you needed to be dressed as a book character today, as we are walking out the door!!!! The list is endless.
Back to my words I wrote at the beginning of the year,
- How was I going heal myself?
- How am I going to have no more hurt?
- How am I going to find the balls to stand up and say no when I want to?
This is what I have been asking myself in 2017, because to be honest with you they are massive asks aren’t they, ones that because of forty six years of learnt behaviours, negative ways of thinking, environments and people that have shaped me, all this I am going to have to change to reach the holy grail of happiness!
How am I, in the words of Russell Brand am I going to ‘unfuck’ myself?’
What are the things that have helped towards my written words I wrote?…. You notice I don’t like to use the words ‘goal’, ‘resolutions’ because I feel that puts me under to much pressure to achieve, and then I feel a failure or a loser or weak if I don’t achieve. These are just words, thoughts, no pressure, so what if I miss a day it does not matter, I can start again tomorrow, new day, new beginning, no failures just small steps, and as long as those steps are taken it is a step forward.
So here are the words I wrote a couple of days in my diary…
I am hoping over 2018, and what I have written down in my new diary is, I want to help people like me that want to unfuck themselves, maybe share with people that want to read it how I am doing it, instead of keeping my writings to myself, share some of it.
Questions to ponder…
- How have you done this year?
- How do you feel today?
- What words would you write for next year?
Love to you all x
3 Things I Am Grateful For Today…
Today I had the freedom to wake when I chose, freedom to make a cuppa tea, freedom to get back into a comfy bed, freedom of technology, freedom of my own choice, freedom to make my own decisions, if I want to go back to sleep , I can, if I want to get up and go out, I can, freedom is a beautiful thing.
Today I woke up and and have the gift of a new day, I can walk without pain, I can breath without a struggle. I can see the beautiful world around me and can hear my radio and my family.
Whether that is my blood family or my chosen family, they are here if I need them, here to make me smile, here to listen to me, just here.
What are you grateful for today?
From the smallest thing…
Warm cup of tea, clean sheets, day off work, stroll down to the shop, birds singing, fresh air…
WPC – Face
Thats a grumpy face!
This is the face of my Granddaughter when she has just been woken up!
WPC – Earth, Brief Encounter
Doing the job I am doing at the moment definitely puts everything into prospective.
We are here on this earth for a brief moment, one minute we are here the next we are gone, how ever you think of it, what your beliefs are, take this small window of life, grab it, squeeze the hell out of it, sometimes the journey is a struggle, thats ok because it doesn’t last forever.
You don’t take your ‘things’ with you, you don’t take your money, that is all insignificant in the end.
You do leave behind the way you have made people feel, the way you have treated people, the kindness you shown, the care you have taken, the words that you have said, the laughter you have started, the tears you have shed, the memories you have created.
What are YOU leaving behind on this Earth? x
WPC – Landscape
Choosing a landscape photo is easy as I seem to have millions of them because I live in such a beautiful part of the world, having countryside, moorlands and coast to choose from!
This is the panoramic view over the town I live near! X
Wordless Wednesday – Happy
I’m a happy boy because I passed my Kennel Club Gold Award x
WPC – Dance
There’s rhythm and motion all around us…
My boy on the beach a couple of days ago, see the joy in his face! x
Wordless Wednesday – Daisy
This is ‘Daisy the cow’ we brought her at the weekend with some magic beans! x
WPC – One Love
One Love, friendship
Looking back at my past blog posts I have used this picture three times. I love this picture because to me this represents the bond two friends have.
I took this picture a few years ago on a school trip to the local park. These boys where the classes little loveable rebels. I knew them from the day they started in nursery to the day they left in year six. They had been friends from that time in nursery and it had lasted all the way. They had their ups and downs, fall outs, but they always had that bond.
I’m so glad I caught this moment they had together that day, it just looked so peaceful, an unspoken conversation, closeness, understanding. x
Wordless Wednesday – Flow
WPC – Harmony
Harmony…Tricky, can mean a million things to millions of people. To me it is how things complement each other, how things belong together to make one whole, the whole picture of how sky, sea and earth together together make our world, and each picture we take of the sky, sea and earth will look completely different but are only made up of those three elements.
This picture was taken one summers evening, whilst I was sitting on a wall eating fish and chips, at Teignmouth, Devon, England. x
Selfie Sunday – Being Mum
The journey of being mum has at times been a roller coaster ride. It was a job that I never thought I would undertake because I was never the mumsy type. Don’t get me wrong I always liked children, other people’s, you can hand them back you see. I was never a mum that carried tissues in their bag to wipe sticky fingers, I was rubbish at remembering things like PE kits, dentist appointments, my best trick was turning up to appointments on the wrong day, remembering to pick them up after clubs. I was one of those mums as a teacher we hated, sending them in without a coat, not naming their clothes, not turning up for parents evening because I had lost the slip. To be fair I was expecting them both to be in therapy by the time they were teenagers because of the crap mother they had but apparently they seemed to have turned out alright, they say they love me.
They say they liked the fact I was relaxed not pushy, fun, I didn’t mollycoddle. I have taught them independents, they grew up able to cook, clean, look after themselves, help other people with no fussing or nagging on my part. I just let them get on with things and learn by their own mistakes, which believe you me they have made some.
At times I didn’t want to be a mum anymore, it’s the hardest job going, it’s a role that I wanted to be better at, I wanted to be an earth mother, Mother Teresa, Mary Poppins, but I am not, I’m just me, doing the best job in the best way that I can! X
Wordless Wednesday – Is It Love?..
WPC – State Of Mind
Interpret this how you wish….
Spiralling out of control?…
Light at the end of the tunnel?…
I don’t know, you tell me x
Emergency Survival Kit
Believe it not, what you see above is everything I carry with me on every shift. I like to have it all with me, most of it in my pockets, it makes me feel human, heres the low down…
- Reading glasses – It would be no good if I couldn’t read the addresses I am going to, the meds the patient is on, see the microscopic things in wounds, read my phone, etc.
- Sunglasses – Well for a start they make me look cool driving the ambo.
- Pens – For the writing on gloves, taping screen, and searching drug addicts pockets.
- Gloves – For general touching of everything and everybody, sometimes necessary to double glove.
- Scissors – These mothers cut through anything.
- Hand sanitiser – Can be also applied right up the forearms after visiting sticky carpet houses.
- Hand moisturiser – Which is needed after washing your hands a hundred times, and stripping your hands of any natural oils.
- Paracetamol – For the aches and pains after humping the tenth bigger framed person down five flights of stairs, because no large people get ill on the ground floor.
- Base makeup – So I don’t end up looking iller than the people I am seeing after a twelve hour shift.
- Chewing gum – To add to the coolness, and make my breath smell better at 3am.
- Mints – Just incase the gum hasn’t worked.
- Notebook – To be honest most of what is in there is spellings, these medical words are tricky fellas to spell you know.
- Lip balm – To stop my lips from cracking and falling off at -5 at a roadside of a vomiting teenager.
- Eye measuring thingy – Sorry don’t know the proper name, its also good for seeing small head wounds and key code pads.
- Eye drops – By 4am my eyeballs feel like they are going to drop out of my head, and my contacts are pieces of grit scrapping the membrane off my eyes.
- Eye spray – It wakes me up for a long 6 hour transfer.
- Nursey looking watch – This would help me count breaths and heart beats if only I could see the second hand…. refer to number 1
- My personalised stethoscope – This makes me feel doctorish, adds credibility that I might know what I am talking about, but it always helps if you have it turned to the right side, which on occasions I have had a slight panic thinking a person has no heart beat, even though they are sat up breathing and talking to me.
I hope you have found a slight bit of interest in what your local emergency person carries in those big green pockets. Keep safe x
WPC – Seasons
I thought I would post a picture for each season,
As you see above Winter, this picture was taken on my old iPhone when in the rare occasion we actually got snow here, the last time being 2010. We went on a snow walk to the woods, very atmospheric!
Following the cold dark Winters is Spring, this picture represents Spring well here for me, because I live in the countryside the farmers plant the maze and then cover it with plastic which leaves an effect around us like we are surrounded in sparkly water.
Then of cause my favourite time Summer, this is me doing exactly what I want to be doing all the time, say no more you get the picture!
Then Autumn, or how some of you call it Fall, I love the colours at this time of year. The seasons just keep going round and round regardless, moving and changing. One thing you can be assured of. x
Wordless Wednesday – Granddaughter
WPC – Life Imitates Art
This is a tad abstract but in this piece of art I see the face of my handsome dog!
Can you see it? x